They're here!

I've finally reopened my commissions! I'm in a situation where being financially supported can give me better leverage on my life, and want to give back to those who are willing to help or want to hire me for anything. Been trying to find a stable place to stay and express who I am properly, so if you feel like pitching in or desire my artistic capabilities I would be honored. You can find details below.

https://www.newgrounds.com/collab/view/21238

I'll be splitting this into two major things, if you care only for the animation stuff just stick to the first few paragraphs!

The first is a positive one. I'm here to promote an indie animation I was hired to work on called Enchanted! You can click here for details. I'd appreciate it if you could keep an eye out and support them wherever you can as its still in the earlier stages. The people here are talented and I want to see them succeed.

Enchanted is a series by the crew of Rocket Punch Entertainment Studios. If you're interested in following its production you can find them on various social medias (Such as Twitter & Instagram for now). Its a magical fantasy series for those who are into that, the link above will provide the plot summary. I might post some behind the scenes once things get further down the road, who knows?~

Thank you for your time and if you're here for the animation stuff then you don't gotta read past here. Below is just an update on myself.

I'll likely make a proper post for this, but to those who want to hear, for right now in terms of life stuff I wanted to say I'm okay for the time being. I know since my last post was a bit of doom and I wanted to thank everyone who has been patient with me and leaving some kind words, and I'll provide details later as to not overshadow the above project!

I know I rarely use this place as much as I want to, but things in my home life have been hell. I've been meaning to upload more, and I am sorry that I haven't lately. Due to how chaotic and quite frankly abusive my home life has gotten, and trying desperately to get things to change, the only person that does and should is me.

I won't go into major specifics for privacy, but hearing my own dad threaten to not only the lives of my pets but myself, I have reached a breaking point (Calling the cops isn't an easy option rn). I don't normally discuss my own living conditions much here, or anywhere publicly for that matter, but its good to preface what is happening. I can't stand anymore verbal abuse from a narcissist who pretends to do no wrong and victimize themselves, while verbally abusing and screaming at others about how shit they are, and no one should deal with that ever.

I'll see if I can get my finances situated, and try to reopen commissions to get me more secure financially. I haven't this whole time trying to get some older ones out of the way, and have been struggling to find proper time to do them, but now I am desperate.

I'll be opening commissions soon if you feel like wanting some art, but please don't feel obligated to help if you can't or just don't want to.

Thank you for your time.

Its me again, on a place I definitely need to be more active with. How's it going? For me not that great but I'm not fucking going down yet even if the world is slowly.

I've been trying to get some funds going outside of just commissions (Which I admit I need to reopen anyway) to properly get my life together and to get away from an abusive home environment, which is easier said than done now a days, especially with the amount of health issues I got. A tip for you: get into good physical habits sooner than later, even my chronic stuff would've thanked me for it lol

Don't take that as a reason to pay me! Worry about your own well being before fucking considering chipping in on a stranger like me. I wanna earn your commission!

Its taken me a lot to realize how much time passes, versus what time I should take for myself. I've been going at my own pace on things, even if deep down I either want to grind myself to the bone, or get mad at myself for not doing enough. I definitely need to push myself more and more, and I hope one day that effort will pay off... Even if its merely one step at a time.

Thank you for reading this if you did. If not, that's cool too. Mostly just me airing my thoughts, and I appreciate your time regardless ya fucking dingus lmao

Its Artfight time! I'm unsure which team I wanna go for just yet, but we'll see when its time! If you're there hmu so I can get you something nice :)

Hey all, just a bit of an update on why I haven't been active as much (Despite saying I would in my last few updates)

Gonna skip past the long term stuff like depression and a lack of direction when it comes to socializing. Those are important things to take care of, but they're something I can manage (At least the depression part for the most part).

Since the start of February, I have been dealing with some serious heart problems. The problems themselves are unknown to me, as financially setting up an appointment with a cardiologist or some sort of doctor is downright difficult for me, if not impossible on my own properly. It has rendered sleep more difficult, and has really put a major toll on the things I can physically do. I'm already quite disadvantaged from seeking proper income, however asking for money isn't something I enjoy doing, at least not without giving back in return.

I will be redoing my commission sheet soon as an income opportunity, as well as finishing up any I have on my backburner. If you decide to commission me once posted it'd be appreciated, however you shouldn't have to if you don't want to.

I promise I didn't just abandon this site. Love it here! I just have a severe issue with keeping up on my social medias (Even the ones I use a lot). Fucking social anxiety and other bullshit going on irl makes it more of a hassle sometimes lmao

But hey, y'all are amazing and chill, and I love it here and the community! You might see me try to post or interact more often, though no promises on the long term. In the short term, there's this whole Art Attack thing I'm taking part in, so expect some stuff appearing once in a while!

In other news, I've been trying to set up a few projects; a Pokémon clone and some more D&D shenanigans whenever I can get shit scheduled for once. I plan on posting shit about what goes on in those campaigns once they roll, but for the Pokémon clone I'm a bit more hush about for now.

I could post a few design concepts if people want them~

Got most of my medical bullshit sorted so I can try to focus my time more on here and with my art! Whatever was fucking with me decided to go away according to my doctor lol

Hopefully I can get going with being more active, though knowing my repeated history with social media that might be easier said than done.

For a small update on last time regarding my health I'm okay. Be that as it may, I could get worse if I don't take some time to retool some of my daily routine such as a better exercising habits and such. Its a reversible ordeal for now, but it'll take a ton of effort and shit to where it'll cut into the amount of time I can interact or do more.

Sucks since I wanted to look into collabing and doing more in general, but I barely even have time for myself to focus on those things, fuck.

Regardless, I appreciate y'all and your time reading through this.

Got me some news about my life. Some good, a lot bad, but fuck that noise. I'm remaining focused and positive in this, but let me stop beating around the bush and get to it:

Why I have been posing slowly if at all:

-BAD-

1. I'm suffering extreme pain in my abdomen. The lower right portion of my body has been really gimping my productivity and even physical movement. I'll be getting that shit taken care of because golly gee it fucking hurts.

2. I own a tablet made by UGEE and not only has this piece of shit had so many troubles even working on my computer for years now, and not only has it basically fucked up after the latest worthless Windows 10 update, but now the company no longer supports the model I use. So this glorified monitor is gonna be stored nicely away and I can be free from it!

3. Laziness... Yeah I'm shit at maintaining multiple social medias. Sorry bout that.

-GOOD-

1. I was able to afford a new tablet~ Wacom too, bigger than this other junk. I usually don't care about size but this got me thinkin unwise y'all.

2. Because of point 1 of both bad and good I wanna do commissions. I ain't gonna lie to y'all, financially I am okay technically speaking. I'm a bit of a penny pincher who needs a more sustainable income though. I don't need y'all to worry bout my health or my tablet costs, just want people who wanna pay for my art in the future!

TL;DR - I haven't been posting due to health issues, laziness and my tablet fucking being dumb as shit, so I bought a replacement tablet to do commissions in the future because my morale is high and I hope your day is beautiful.

Think that's everything I can think of. Thanks for giving this shit your time of day to read... Or maybe you skipped ahead to find a TL;DR. Don't blame ya, you do you I'm more glad you gave me any time of day lol